I am pleased to say that I am starting to feel like a human again. Hooray.
But seriously…June is not an easy month in the life of a teacher! I have spent the last few days relaxing, napping, reading, and taking it easy. I am always surprised by how exhausted I feel at the end of the school year. I should have been ready for it this year…I was so busy with the album release, then all the usual June madness at school, and then I had to move classrooms (more on that in a moment…)!
So! Summer is here and I have nothing but time!! It is actually freaking me out to think about how little I have planned. I have had to fight the urge many times already to make long to-do lists. I will do the things. But not yet. I’m trying to learn about resting. I’m not very good at it yet.
I am planning to focus on my music. Basically as soon as the album release party was over, I was in full report card writing and year-end mode, which means I have barely had time to think about the fact that I have an album out there in the world! I am hoping to book and play some shows, to spend some time improving this lil website, contacting some radio stations, maybe doing some more writing…
I am also planning to attempt to wrap my head around the fact that I am NOT TEACHING KINDERGARTEN next year. There. I said it.
Part of my exhaustion was from moving classrooms, as I mentioned, which is NOT fun. I have moved classrooms many, many, many ridiculous times. However, this move was different. I had to sort through an entire classroom of stuff, pack up the insane amount of stuff that was my own, leave the stuff that belongs to the school, and determine what I will need in my new classroom, where I will be teaching….
MUSIC!!! Yup! That’s right!
So, a tiny little tidbit of my teaching story…I have been teaching since the fall of 2005. Yikes. My first year I spent subbing and had 2 temporary contracts, both in elementary music. In the fall of 2006 I began my contract position at the school I am STILL at (!!!), teaching half-time Kindergarten, half-time music. I did that for 9 YEARS. Juggling 2 jobs like that was very challenging and kept me insanely busy. I look back and don’t even understand how I did that for so long. But, I really loved teaching both K and music. I had opportunities to move into other positions within the school, but I just couldn’t! Then 2 years ago, something in my heart knew it was time for a change. I’d been presented with the opportunity to teach full-time Kindergarten. It was a very difficult decision, but I went for it. I tearfully gave up the music program and prepared to teach one program. I didn’t really know why I felt it was time to let go of music right then…but God knew.
Right at the end of the summer of 2015, my whole personal world crashed around me and I found myself facing some major decisions and changes. Only having one program to teach, and one that I was very comfortable with was a huge blessing. My stress level at work was significantly lower as a result of the change I had made. Both my morning and afternoon classes were amazing and it made my teaching life pretty great. I was able to do my job well, but also had the time and energy to focus on my personal life, which was exactly what I needed.
So, for the past 2 years I have taught full time Kindergarten. This year that just ended was incredibly busy for a different reason…I had written my album last summer and decided to move forward with recording and releasing. Why wait, right? It was quite the year!
This spring, I felt that tug on my heart again, telling me that it was time to shift. After a great deal of prayer, quite a few tears, and many conversations with my Administrators, colleagues, and friends…I decided to teach music again!
Change is always bittersweet. I am terribly excited to be the music teacher again. I have missed it in many ways and for many reasons. But I have loved teaching Kindergarten, and I know that I will miss that too.
But for now…excuse me while I grab my book and a tall glass of cold water…my lawn chair in the shade is calling my name. Again. : )